Waiting and waiting some more..

Alright.. Hopefully this is the last post I have to do like this because, honestly, I'm getting just as bored with it as you are.
But my levels today were at 7. Seriously! I don't think it could get any closer to zero than this.
Tomorrow is 4 weeks since my D&C and honestly..I had no idea it would take this long for my levels to get to zero. I'm bummed...frustrated.. and over all pissed.   And I'm allowed to be pissed. Its something I have to live with each and every day. Not only did we lose our first baby, but I now have to wait for such a long time to even get started again.
And yes...I know there is nothing I can do but wait and pray...but we are just ready to get started and finally have the family we know we were meant to have.

Sorry for such a negative post..hopefully next week I will have some better news!!!
**deep breaths and positive thoughts**

Same old story..

Today I had another check up to see if my levels had finally gone down to zero so that we could get back into IUI.
Well..they didn't. My HCG level is at 25.4 which is down quite a bit from last week but still not zero. So I have to go back next week to check them again.
I feel so defeated today. I can usually keep positive but today its really getting me down. So I ask that you pray for me to keep positive. I take so much pride in the fact that I can keep positive through almost anything but today I'm feeling a little pessimistic.
Thank you guys for keeping up with our journey and I will post again next week!!!

2 Weeks Post D&C Appointment and Update

Two weeks ago today, I had to go through something that no one should ever have to go through. I had to have my child taken from my womb too soon. 

That day will forever be implanted in my mind and I will never forget how broken I felt. 

But it was also the first step we had to take in our new path to parenthood.

With that being said..we are healing. I know the pain of losing our first child will never fully go away, but it will also no deter us from pursuing our dreams of becoming parents. As soon as we are able to start IUI again, we will. 

Yesterday we had our first post-op appointment to check things out and see how long it would take to get back into IUI. Dr Vandermolen said that surgery went extremely well, the tissue released very easily and since I don't have any spotting or cramping I didn't need to have an exam. So I got my blood drawn to check my HCG levels. As soon as they get down to zero, we can start the process of IUI 3 weeks from then (well...that's when I can start the medicine to get my cycle started). 

Anyway, I got a call from my nurse this afternoon and she sounded extremely happy! She said that my levels were dropping great and that my HCG was at 143. My levels were at 123 the day I found out I was pregnant..so they are dropping quickly. I was just hoping that they would already be at zero. But we are just anxious to get started. All the stories that I have been reading, it has taken women 8-12 weeks for them to get where I am at 2 weeks post op. So I am grateful for that. 

So the next step is to go back next Tuesday and get my levels checked again. Hopefully they will be at zero and we can start getting prepared to start IUI again!!! 

Thank you all for the prayers! It has been an extremely hard time for us but we are grateful to have so many people sending positive thoughts and prayers our way!

I will keep you updated on our journey!!!